Sunday, June 18, 2006

The most happiest man.......

Happiness is the most important thing for you to achieve in your life.
Happiness can not be gained.
It is earned by your heart.
Happiness can be found
When you are close to God and obeying his words
Happiness can be found
When you show your kindness to others
Happiness can be found
When you are nice to those you hate
Happiness can be found
When you help others
Happiness are the love and kindness
And learn to enjoy what ever comes along
Happiness is not far away from you
It is close to you heart
Happiness is serving God for all eternity
and once you fulfilled your wishthen you are the most happiest man.

i found this poem on the net by chance really and i really liked it. i realised my past posts were so random i decided to blog on sth more important.

happiness. something desired, longed for by many yet earned and felt by few. i think to truly feel happiness the poet missed out something you need to be secure. security with who you are and what you are going to do. when you know exactly who you are and hence know exactly what you are going to give of yourself to others. more often than not happiness comes from within like when your so at ease with the world. there is nothing you want to change because there is nothing to change because you know people are the way they are and you accept them, their strengths their flaws. your happy because your just you and your not afriad to show you to the world. i used to know exactly who i was. exactly what i wanted in life. exactly where i wanted to go and do. but now i dont. things changed. i gave way to imperfection and i let spontaneity into my life. its fun. it makes me happy. yet deep down at the back of my mind i know i have this naggin insecurity. the insecurity of the future. no use really but its just there. i no longer what i want to do or go. a rough idea maybe but im not as sure as i was as last time i was going to get it. perfection in an imperfect world is imperfection in itself. but still. insecurity leads to unhappiness sometimes.

yet today the most exhilarating thing happen. i was shoppin with my dad cause he need shaving stuff and well i just went for the ride. i was looking at soccer jerseys when this little boy came right up to me and hugged my legs. i mean i was taken aback intially. then i looked down n smiled. he laughed and ran off. then as i was choosing stuff, he came back n each time i passed a shirt he looked at it and the price, which was what i was doing anyway. adorable but yea they was such joy in his face. i looked over at his parents, they just smiled at me. at least they knew where he was. then he was like "u choose already??'" haha i was like yea. but it struck me as i was so caught up in choosing the perfect jersey to try i realised i have many options in my life. even the ones i seemed to have narrowed down. but the world aint a vaccumm and yes the possibilities are endless. like the breath taking scenes of countrysides in italy, your life could take an unexpectable turn for the best. i want to touch people's life and make a difference. i was reading past sms-es a very drunk or self claim drunk arun had sent me but yes my screwed up half- cousin made me feel as if i made a difference, if in no one else's life at least his. he is still as scrwed up as ever, but the objective of being there for some1 is not to change them, it is just to be there for them and yea live it through with them.

common tests are worrying me but really i have been watching one tree hill all the season 2 episodes and dirty dancing 2!! omg its a damn damn good show!! i love it! my kinda show...historical setting..its in cuba with the back drop of the fidel castro led revolution and yes all about being free, taking a chance and living in the moment of here and now and doing right by youself and by as many as you can possible..

watching one tree hill made me realise something, we alot of times hide behinds masks, sherades of who we think others would accept. like i was telling reka, people are full of layers, layers you have to be willing to peel in order to get to know the real person. some layers are just not worth the effort peeling, but others are, and you'd be amazed at what you find. which leads me back to the idea of just being yourself. i mean if ppl dont like it then so be it. at least you dont need layers to conceal your identity. when you say sum1 is arrogant or cocky. there are just 2 things tt can be the case. firstly its a sherade and they are really nice ppl undeneath tt exterior in need of just some frenship. or they really are worl class jerks. but then again like i always believe. they is inherent good in simply every1. differences or disagreements arise when ya exteriors dont match yup to the person you are trying to potray or that the other is trying to potray.

oh well i dont think any1 understood anything i said in the super long entry above. i just blurted out stuff that came to my head. its okie i tink im just high or stressed. i get this way sometimes. am gonna watch dirty dancing 2 again! haha=)) there goes cts..but yes i love the show..the dancing is amazing. latin dancing..sumday ill learn it. well as most ppl prob dont know except a few like fredrick, yes i wanted to be a professional latin dancer and dance my life away in all the countries around the world when i was younger. haha oh well. well the other one was to be an air stewardess and an embassador. but the dancer things sounds waayy cooler and more radical. haha..

as the 3rd week ends. i just wanna say that this hols have been soo different for me.. i did soo many radical un dhiviya-ish things. and you know what i dont regret a bit of it. in fact ill do it all again..=) most of it anyway..=D i need to find my sercurity blanket again..


Posted by shellsofsilence at 11:26 PM