Saturday, July 01, 2006

After the past month when i was on a perpetual high and honestly having one of the best times of my life.. i feel low all of a sudden. like its all gone. an eeriee forboding emptiness that wreaks the depths of your soul. okie not so severe but more or less. i know its over, though i wish it wasnt, but there are more pressing issues at hand. i need to find my momentum, confidence and security blanket all over again. you know sometimes i hate it how due to certain turn of events certain things happen and you really really enjoy them, but just when u were a feeling a connection to people and places, everything fades away again. i guess it is really the unpredictability of life. the twisted turn of events. n the key..move on..but still its annoying. well now i know exactly what i want and im ready to get it. nothing else shall and will matter.

"Rise and fall like the fading waves
but falter not for thy worthiness is embedded in their receding joy."

okie i jus made tt up from the top of my head..i think it makes no sense.
anyway im off to meet my aunt and cousins for dinner at chom chom! YAY!

oh n post ct life is soooo damn amazing. after shoppin wif sads, i went out wif ninny the other day. n i can surely say she is the bestest fren n pandi any1 could ever ask for..sorry ive been late the past few times..hehe..but yup n i should seriously stop watching soap operas..they make shows like superman returns soo damn pedictable. its like from the time they showed lois married n having a kid i told ninny tt that kid was superman's but she didn believe me as usual..but then lo and behold! i was right! hahaha...i should quit soaps man..seriously...

england portugal game later on tonight. ENGLAND MUST DIE! haha go on portugual! hhaha..btw portugese costal countryside is simply breathtaking. nevermind one day, ONE DAY i tell you ill be off venturing new frontiers and experincing the scenic wonders of europe marred by my momentous FIRST eva PLANE ride...tt would be the day i tell you..n the sooner the better..=P but for that id need to make my OWN cash cos well parents cant afford explains my plane-lessness..haha if there is even such a word. oh i was reading this thing about orphans in nepal. its like a 5 mth volunteer program..n i actually am considering doing tt after A's. the cost is like under a 1000 cos well its sing dollar converted to rupees i think. but ive always wanted to do this sorta thing. like u know giving back to the community and stuff. you know bring a smile to their faces. but yup till now its jus a strongly wanting to be materialised fantasy. oh well..we'll see...

"Trapped in a tantalizing tapestry of silent dreams."


Posted by shellsofsilence at 7:50 PM