Thursday, May 24, 2007

OMG! i cant believe almost 6 months has flown past soo fast!...ive been at st pats for like 1 and a half terms...where do i even start?? it has been the MOST MEMORABLE journey of my life...sure it WAS NOT easy...but i learnt ALOT and you know thinkin back at the end of the day, i am a much better person today simply because i had this experience..

i am still trying to collect my thoughts to give a properly composed entry...but its too hard..i have a rush of emotions going through my head...statisfaction, happiness, and the inevitable nostalgic feeling and partial reluctance of deaprture...like you know how a void would be in your heart

a random 3N1 boy asked me today..."mam, why do you care soo much about 3N2 (the class i teach english to)?" and all i could say was " why should i not care?" because the truth is i care and i dunno y but i jus do..whether or not it is appreciated or i am respected makes no difference to me...its jus me cos care should be given n shown without expectation of anything else in return...=))

i still rmb on my 1st day on th 31st of jan, i was nervous as hell, cos the boys were like all bigger and taller than me..n i had the timetable which said 2e5,2N1,2N2,3N2,2T2...n almost every teacher who saw me was like OMG gd luck man...tt was sooo NOT helping...and didn help that SOME teachers thought i was a shotgun parent problem..tsk tsk well cos it was the breakfast meeting where parents get to meet the teachers...

i rmb all the classes i went into saying " you know we made the previous teacher leave, and dunno how many others cry..what makes you think you can last?" almost every class i went into said they were the worst class ever..but i was like we shall jus see...n you know wad i haven cried IN CLASS AT ALL during my time there...hmmm felt disheartened? yes. felt demoralised? yes. felt like a loser? yes. but it all paid off eventually cos i refused to give up..haha like krys said..ur commitment is jus scary..haha true...so many ppl have asked my y i am still there or like y i cared whether the boys passed or not as it really makes no difference to me...they were and are all right...but the fact was that it mattered. it mattered tt they passed and passed well...mayb tts y i kept tryin...n i hav no regrets what-so-ever =))

i have become a much stronger person. i see problems with a different light. i handle and relate to ppl differently or rather i realise how to cater to their needs effectively..it has been such an enriching experience...and when 3N2 sang their little good-bye song..haha i was touched..i know it sounds silly and dumb but it doesnt take alot to make me smile and yea i was touched..=))
i think at the end of the day im gonna miss them all...ESP THE STAFF! who made me feel sooo welcomed, allowed me to make mistakes and guided me through everything....they made me feel so loved and cared for..haha they are a very nice bunch..=)) gosh im soo thankful right now...

ahhh..i shall miss them all!! =)) thank you! =))


Posted by shellsofsilence at 8:27 PM